Found out recently I'm at a higher risk of infection because of my medication. It's only every 6 months and the highest risk times are the days/weeks following a dose. Unfortunately my next dose is this week and my fear has gone through the roof.
Having to commute to a clinic (thankfully not being done at the hospital) and sit through the administration of the medication which takes 5-6 hours and makes me feel exhausted and just crappy only to have to commute home, knowing my immune system was just partially obliterated and then waiting for a few weeks through the usual discomfort it causes hoping I didn't catch anything has had me completely wound up.
Made worse by the fact that I need to go to downtown Toronto, to a hospital, to get a test done, a week after i get this medication given, I'll still be elevated risk and coping with the associated fear of the given circumstance is feeling overwhelming.